Some serious hair crushin' going on in the grouping above huh?!
So over the weekend I did something new.
Not as drastic as sky diving or anything, but definitely equally as freeing.
(ahhhh. For those that are natural, you know what a huge deal the first time is)
If you have been reading for a while, you know that I have been
transitioning. (Growing out my chemically relaxed hair)
There have been several reasons I haven't done this before.
1. I'm too busy--Levi doesn't give me much free time these days to primp.
2. I was scared.--I typically wasn't involved with the wash &
style process since I decided to transition,
so the dual textures made it difficult to handle on my own.
3. I was worried.--More so of how I would look afterward. Would my husband still
find me attractive. (He is a hair guy and has always fawned over my long locks).
Will my style
have to change to fit into the #teamnaturalista /
#curlygirl / #curlyhairdontcare / #straighthairisforwimps mold?
Do I have to change my persona to fit in those molds that I have
never really wanted to fit in the first place?
So many insecurities.
It's funny how you an get so trapped in a box of your own emotion and ideals for yourself
and lose out on full on awesomeness by being safe...all the time.
That is what my relaxed hair was/is. Safe.
And I have completely released myself from the need to identify myself with one
specific group. I have always strayed from the pack, so why would that change now.
I guess I assumed that growing my hair out was some how conforming
to a new normal, but in actuality it wasn't. It was something I have always wanted
but never had the patience, schedule, time, or resources to complete.
Now I will have the versatility I have always wanted, plus more.
I won't get too Iyanla here, but I will say that I am quite happy with the direction
this is taking. --Kel
*all photos were aquired via Pinterest